Thursday, January 31, 2008

My "Knight" in Shining Armour

Romeo o Romeo, wherefore art thou o Romeo...

I have been missing you so much. Longing to touch, feel, caress every bit of you....and together we'll embark on a journey ever so passionate. I can't wait till the day we'll finally be together. My broken heart will only heal with thy love (*sob!).

Waiting is such sweet sorrow, and I'll say 'very soon baby' till it be 'morrow... (Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet, bits of)


Saturday, January 26, 2008

facebook whoring

Mother Facebook knows best.

Berperasaan sangat pathetic kalau ingat August-December. The things i did were so, so ....not berpandukan Facebook. Maybe that's why they didn't turn out right, ahahahhaaaa.....

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

TR nite

Terima kasih Encik SM. Encik SM sangat baik hati. Saya sangat
kekenyangan selepas sesi di TR malam ini. Early birthday treat yang
sangat best. Encik SM adalah kawan yang sangat best. Ohhh...

Byk sangat 'sangat' kat entry ni. Harap Encik SM dapat memahami, heheh

Friday, January 18, 2008

pop quizzzzz

Soalan 1:
Apakah yang telah Cik Adiepot lakukan selepas seharian penat bekerja hari ini?

[a] Makan lagi kuih goyang yang Aggie punya aunty buat. Sedappppp.
[b] Berjalan-jalan di dalam midveli
[c] Membeli-belah
[d] Semua di atas

Soalan 2 (sila rujuk gambar di bawah):
Labelkan gambar ini dengan memilih jawapan yang paling tepat.

[a] Henbeg suka-suka
[b] Henbeg suka-suka yang ada diskaun 20%
[c] Henbeg suka-suka yang ada diskaun 20%, bila dibeli adalah yang ke-86 dimiliki oleh Cik Adiepot.

ii) Adakah Cik Adiepot patut membuat pembelian tersebut?

[a] Yezzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
[b] Memilih untuk tidak masuk campur kerana Cik Adiepot ini memang pembeli-belah yang kronik.

iii) Pada fihrasat anda, berapa kali agak-agaknya Cik Adiepot akan pakai henbeg ini sebelum dia boring?

[a] 3
[b] 4
[c] paling kuat pun 7-8 kali je

Soalan 3 (sila rujuk gambar dan kenyataan di bawah):

Kenyataan: Cik Adiepot telah membeli barangan ini juga.

[a] Ya
[b] Tidak, tapi seperti tak percaya dia tak beli. Kalau tak beli kenapa nak amik gambar dan post kat blog? Ini soalan trick.

Soalan 4:
Jika anda memilih jawapan (a) bagi Soalan 3 di atas, siapakah yang anda rasa telah mempengaruhi Cik Adiepot membuat keputusan mengikut perasaan sebegitu rupa?

[a] Orang kaunter mekap
[b] Magazine bulan 2 yang dah sampai semalam (eyyy bes!)
[c] Takde sapa-sapa. Dia memang suka pengaruh diri seniri kalau hal-hal menghabiskan duit.

Soalan 5 (bonus):
Bagaimanakah Cik Adiepot menyambung talian Internet pada malam ini?

[a] Cara konvensyenel dengan mencucuk kabel.
[b] Mencurik signal wayarles (heh, ini perkataan BM stended ok?) dari rumah encik jiran yang baik hati tak lock wifi dia.

[c] Curik wifi encik jiran tapi signal kureng jadi menyebabkan terpaksa pergi ke bawah dan mencucuk kabel. Dem.

Kertas soalan tamat.

Performance anda dalam kuiz hari ini akan mengcontribute sebanyak 50% dalam final exam.
Hoh, ada final exam hokessss......nyeh nyeh.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Adiós Final

And so the CD and the racquet are now gone. Returned 'home' for good through a mutual link.

I'm gonna miss the latter a lot. He said it's already mine since the day he passed it to moi so keep it. But it was originally his and I've never proclaimed the ownership even in 'happy' times. (Unfortunately) it's the only interest that we share in common - yeah, it's got to go. Never inflict unnecessary pain to oneself, be it physical or emotional.

I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. I believe that I now tire you peeps with my pathetic entries of late. Well at least the crying part is over. Next phase?


love ya peeps,

"time will always heal the pain
bring the sun and dry the rain
things work out with time
if you want them to"

Monday, January 14, 2008

I should be working and studying for something big for tomorrow. Sigh..takde mood ok. Miss Ki-Moira tagged me so I'm gonna hit these questions first hehe.

1. How has 2007 been for you in a nutshell?
A stormy sea.

2. Apart from your family members, name one person who has made you happy in 2007.
Syaza Fitrihanna Mohd Syawal <- sama macam myra

3. Do you feel you are better off, or worse off, in 2007 than you were in 2006?
Somewhere in between. There's nowt that distinguishes bad and evil these days.

4. Where was the best holiday trip for you in 2007?
Barcelona, of course ;)

5. Name two positive things that you have achieved in 2007
Teaching and yes, the gym!

6. Name the best movie you saw in 2007.

7. Name five friends that you have made in 2007.
Zorro, Nurulhanom, Aggie, Eza Rena, Alien (haha!).

8. What New Year’s resolution for 2007 that you have not achieved?
To spend less.

9. What would your New Year’s resolution for 2008 be?
A firm grip on faith.

10. Name 3 people you would like to tag.
Nypd, Jasmine, Nurul Isabella. (ish, dah tak lambat sgt ke ni?)

Kisses ~adIEpot~

Sunday, January 13, 2008

not one to forgive nor to forget

I'm definitely not a Facebook whore. I get lost in all the mess of stupid widgets. BUT, look what I found today among the pile of invies!

A real snazzy one up there. No I didn't meet my ex today. However, God knows how much I want to run him over with a monster truck. Again and again and again and again and again.

Also, I hope he (soon) dies a painful death, then rot in a dump somewhere.

I'm not a spiteful person. But I believe that having a major desire in inflicting pain to the one who hurts me bad is A-okay.

I think I'll Facebook more from now on. It seems to start 'understanding' moi. Hmmm...

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Somewhere between sad and glad

Kadang-kadang rasa tak faham. Senangnya orang ambik jalan mudah keluar. Senangnya orang tak mau bersabar. Senangnya buat orang sambil menyalahkan orang-orang yang lain dan 'keadaan'.

A good friend recently said 'You kena mengaku kelemahan you. You tak boleh nak keep on fighting because sometimes you really have to admit (succumb?) to how you truly feel before you heal the pain. Kalau you sedih, feel the hurt inside you. Menangis la puas-puas. Lepas tu move on. Dan you tak patut question kenapa semua ni jadi sebab Tuhan dah tentukan semua ni. Ada sebab baik kenapa Dia nak semua ni jadi kat you. Memang you marah, you rasa unfair. Tapi siapa kita nak persoalkan semua ni? Redha tak bermakna hidup lemah. Jadi lembik. No. Cuma jangan lawan perasaan tu semata-mata you nak tunjuk kat semua orang that you are strong, that you're a fighter, that others can do no shit to you. Bila kita dah sedar, kita usaha untuk banyak bersabar, janganla risau sebab Dia tau dan nampak semua ni. And He is Maha Adil, Maha Pengasih - hugely likely Dia akan bagi you reward sikit-sikit bila you berubah. Sedar la, dunia ni tak habis kat sini je. You fikir baik-baik kenapa you jadi macam ni. And take a step back, ambik lah simpang yang lagi satu tu. Sebab Dia sayang dekat you lah you jadi macam ni. Kalau Dia tak sayang dekat kita, kita tak dapat ujian yang kita rasa tah hapa-hapa ni. I've known you for 12 years. Please la, I tau you tak lemah macam ni. Jangan jadi bodoh. Buang degil keras hati you tu. Tu semua makan diri. Banyak la sabar.'


Sometimes, you just get the unexpected lashings from the most unexpected people. But they do you good. Really.

Sigh...I hope I can keep my head sorted for good. I just wonder why some people who look tough on the outside simply give up easily. If you have faith in something, and your instinct tells you that it's a yay, why can't you sabar for a bit more. I know I'm far from being religious, and preaching about faith in that sense really isn't my forte. But refusing from having faith (both iman and keyakinan tentang sesuatu) means you are never going anywhere. Tinggal lah kau kat situ.

You have to fight for what you want. Dan melawan dengan hati batu mata tertutup itu tak bawak ke mana pun. I now believe that you can still fight in silence. Provided only if your conscience is clear, and you stop pointing fingers at the world. And yeah, stop running away from problems too because it doesn't solve anything. Instead it throws you further into the deep end.

You hurt me alright. But I pity you more for refusing to grow up and face the music. Although this hasn't been pretty, I think I'm blessed to be given the chance to work on turning on a new leaf.

I just hope that one day you will too. (You know who you are).

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

hari ini saya agak nak ter-break down

2.16pm, post lunch
Today I had a sudden bout of missing this place and my che su.

Around this time last year, I think I already knew that I would get to go there again. Not this year though. I don't have the means (read: $$$) to anymore.

Since flying to that place is not an option for now, I did the best I could as a substitute. It went as follows:

  1. Went 9 floors down.
  2. From The Boulevard, crossed over to the less fancy mall (believe it or not, i still lose my way in The Gardens so I rarely go over).
  3. Down another floor.
  4. Walked towards south court, identified target location (Nando's), went straight to the take-out counter.
  5. Ordered 2 servings of my choice of lunch for the day. 2 okeh?
  6. Next, supermarket. Grabbed a bottle of ketchup. No Heinz. Bummer. Belasah la Kimball pun.
  7. Back in the office, did something else first for a bit.
  8. Then dumped lunch in the microwave.
  9. Smacked (huge) dollops of mayo and ketchup next to lunch.
  10. There. A typical Dutchman comfort food. Sizzling hot chips with mayo n ketcup. (sorry no snapshot. i was too hungry to even care.)


Banyaknya makan. I think I'm gonna vomit now.

A spot in Amsterdam to get the real thing (u get a cutesy tiny fork to go with yeay):

Oh, I also have this.

Wait. Bersabar. Jangan tamak. Nanti muntah. Nanti gumuk lagi.


Shoot me! Shoot me!

I offered my second pb cup to Encik Boss. Oh...and the guilt simply vanished. Ahahaha...

AdiePoTT XoXoXo
Hari ini adalah berperasaan gundah gulana tetapi mengada. Hohoh.

Monday, January 07, 2008

7th day and going stronger

Dear friends,

Have you ever thought that I am one selfish bitch? Thank you, I know the thought have at least come across your minds once. Fret not, I do realise that I am a very difficult person for others to 'get'. But I thank you for sticking with me, nonetheless, at trying times like this. Now.

I have cried silent and loud tears when fighting was no longer an option. But I know in my heart that one fine day, to me this will merely be one of those 'things' that just happen. A shitty episode that just happened to make and not break me.

Yes, I am sad. Yes, I am deeply hurt now.

But I believe that the Greatest One has better plans for me. (Amin).

Thursday, January 03, 2008

don't waste the pretty

From the words of Behrendt and Tucillo (2004):

"He's got so much good in him". That's why you fell in love with him in the first place. I know you wouldn't fall in love with an asshole. But here's the trick: forget about him and his good qualities. Even forget about his bad ones. Forget about all his excuses and what he promises. Ask yourself one question only: Is he making you happy? People are complicated.They are a mixed bag of loveable and dysfunctional qualities. That's why they are so darn confusing. That's why trying to figure them out is a waste of time. Is he making you happy? I don't mean some of the time, on rare occasions, not that often, "but the good still outweighs the bad". Does he make it clear in his actions every day that your happiness is important to him? If the answer is no, cut him loose and go find a man with a higher "good count".

And, at any mention of "friend":
what it should mean: I will never do anything to intentionally hurt you.
what it sometimes means: I'm just not that into you.

I will not be with a man who's afraid to talk about our future.

I will not, under any circumstances, spend my precious time with a man who has already rejected me.

I will not be with a man who is not clearly a good, kind, loving person.