yes, i'm still under intense emo core

Latest Raleigh alerts:

1. am still getting the sponsorship (partial or full, pending his bank balance) so yeay!
2. maxis IDD132 is 20 sen a minute not 99 sen. pheww...
3. eva air has way cheaper tix to the states. i'd prolly get full sponsorship after all, heh.

I hope them Raleigh folks have ferris wheels in town. There's a promise of Eye on Malaysia that was not fulfilled before he left. Again, the fault is most probably mine. Ngok. Ngok la kau Adie. One hefty lump of ngok-ness in you.

AdiEPoTT the 'Ngok'ness Monster

jangan lembik!!!!

dont call him.

dont call him.

dont call him.

dont call him.

dont call him.

please go to sleep.

or keep cursing the airlines for the extra 2k for june '09 (babi la mahal nak mampus baik aku bayar ptptn).

i need RM6k to fly to Raleigh

i miss him so bad. 

why raleigh? why cant they have regional training, like, in malaysia? :(

many other MNCs conduct local trainings. why cant your stupid company do the same?????

it's gonna be a long, hard year. i have to let go of may other things, and people, to prove that i'm worth the pain. 8 years and things are still difficult.

i miss u M. i know i cant have 7 hours of video conference with you everyday come July 28th. i hate the awful time difference. i hate that Maxis IDD132 is expensive for calls to the States. I hate that I have to close both eyes to get my own pc so that i can call u for cheap cheap. i hate that u give me more and more mixed messages. i hate that it's one year, and not one week or one month. i hate that the possibility of me seeing you is next july or august and many rounds of careful savings so that i can scrape off enough money to fly to you. i hate that you're not around when i start my new job. i hate i hate i hate all of these.

pain... :( 

Fringe Benefit? Heho!

My benefit shipment arrived today, yeay! Thought they're only arriving on aug 19th so this is a welcome surprise :-). Really made my day, after all those bad things i've gone thru for the past week.

It pays to buy online: a lot cheaper n i hv stuff that the counters dont have. I'm a happy camper!

That explains the Xanax...aha!

Take the quiz. Everyone is a cuckoo, no worries. Heh.

AdIepoTT

Gone Bonkers and Lovin' It

Sorry for being AWOL for a bit. Not that the five, maybe six, of you there reading mind kan? Hohoh...

Ok, here's the dirt-

Current employment status: Employed

Employment status in three weeks time: Unemployed

Perasaan: Exhilirated, Lega, Ha-he-ho!, Sandy beaches+Guccis = Schweeeeet......

Perasaan lain-lain: Scared shitless cos I wont have much money if this lasts for...a bit longer than I thought, Gila ke aku ni?, Pelik-but-ok-la-kot-kejap.

Also, I'm totally not in the mood to baby anyone. I'll adopt a tiny orphan if I'm so damn psyched to doing just that.

And I'd quite like to really butt-kicking start my fudge business seriously soon.

AdiEPoTT
Sejak bila aku suka pegi pantai ni?

can't take it anymore

'So what's your plan?'

'What are you working on today?'

'Maybe you can think about it over the weekend.'

'When do you think you can get it done?'

'What's on your plate at the moment?'

...and a string of others.

Tell me, am I crazy of wanting to move away? It's hard when I want to deliver but can't. I don't have the drive anymore. I can't cope.

i. really. want to move away. far.

Sick shit

I'm at a conference in singapore. Very tiring, practically running
from one session to another. Last nite was hell. Received 'the call'
from hell too. It's been several years that i've put up with this
scenario. I held back the urge to move on out of gratitude towards the
good things that i've received from that end. So i thought i should
compromise and not act on impulse or go on emotional strike. But now
i'm numb. Maybe i can do something else less attractive
compensation-wise. I dont care much anymore. So long as i'm happy, at
peace. It wont be a rebellious decision anymore. I'm tired. And i hate
myself when i dont perform well. I currently extremely underperform.

AdiEPott on gmail mobile, in a boring session, nothing that she
doesn't already know.

kecik itu chomel

halo. saya tau awak semua rasa 'hek eleh, macam bagus perempuan ni letak entry kat bawah tu guna bahasa pelik2'. haha. biarkan, kadang2 hati memang rasa nak mengada. tapi takdelah sampai nak announce kat majlis makan2 kat rumah orang yang saya nak pegi shopping lagi walaupun semalam dah shopping dan kawan saya kat sebelah memberi respon bahawa semalam itu telah beli kasut nine west. ahhhhhh, tak koser mak dengar cakap2 besar macam ni. kalau kat homeland dia nine west tu takdela semenggah mana pon cik kak yang baru kenal nine west oi. meh sini mak nak citer, mak ni umur 16 dah pakai kasut nine west tu so mak tak heran la ye nyah. susah orang kalau orang yang rasa dia best sangat ni. macam mana la orang itu boleh jatuh chenta dengan dia. poor thing, he's unknowingly shackling himself to a life-long episode of kekejian perempuan keji. ohoooooo...adiepot is menyampah of her big time okeh? and adiepot feels bad cos she cant rescue her friend away from the bi-a-tch.

eh, apa ni refer kat diri seniri as a third party? kenapa emo, kenapa tetiba digress dari tajuk entri ini? sebab sekarang macam2 benda yang frustrating dah jadi. sigh...

anyhoooooo....i'm enjoying this cute tiny lappie that emak bought coupla months back. initially i was skeptical of its usefulness la kan. so kecit cenonet my digits are all over the keyboard trying to type correctly. dah la mak ni femes dengan masalah typo. keyboard besar pun selalu berterabur taip ini kan pula yang sebesar tapak kaki nyamuk cenggini (heh). I'm actually testing it for a conference this thursday-friday. need to do lotsa networking but ordered by encik boss to carry the lappie for uncalled-for demo oppos. haih, takkan le mak nak pikul laptop besar tu sana sini, dah la bahu mak ni tak kuat. so yeah, i guess i'm now eating my words for having kutuk-ed this cik lappie cenonet before. so people, i reckon u don't need a macbook air for the ultimate portability. u only need an Eee PC, weeeeeeeeee!

learn more about my cenonet clan here

aaaahhhhh...terima kaseh emak kerana membeli cenonet ini. walaupun emak masih marah dengan saya tapi saya pinjam la dulu cenonet ni pegi conference jauh tu. nanti kat sana saya ada 1 hari untuk shopping jadi saya akan cuba membeli samting untuk emak ,kasi emak terpujuk. nampaknya saya terpaksa mengeluarkan kuasa hekmat gores dan hutang untuk misi ini. harap emak tak marah lagi lepas saya balik nanti.

sekian.

adiEpoTT is also tensi with WORK, jerawat attacks, not having enough comfy shoes and sakit bahu.

:(

Ik wou dat ik kan stoppen met mijn werk en maak chocolade fudge thuis.

Nu ik wil naar huis.

Ja, chocolade fudge.